Release my Heart.

I haven't been able to deal with this. My mind nor my body can't even function right. I've been getting really sick when I eat, or feeling sick because of stomachaches. I feel like I have no motivation left, no passion, no anything left.

Grrrrr. She doesn't fucking understand! When she starts dating some other jerk (although she said she won't and she probably will for rebound or to just get her mind off me because we need space) she'll realize that she'll miss me, and to be honest, she'll probably be too late, so that's her fault! she doesn't know how bad i'm taking this, or what it would have been like if she broke up with me. She doesn't understand that I have really hard emotional problems and mad depression. I've felt so sick in my mind and body for over a month straight now, and my body is continually hurting. I don't think I can take much more of this.





I really think I need to go to a therapist and be medicated. She never thought I needed that, but than again, partly the reason she left me was because it was too stressful to see me go through this, so apparently she wanted me to stay strong when I'm way to weak to right now. She doesn't understand one damn bit. She's too close minded to see that.


I can't be alone for too long, or I start losing it. I wish I didn't have to sleep alone at night...