White Hair.

It's weird how one thing can get to you. Everything else could be going so well, and then it's just one thing that hits you right in the face and blocks everything else out, and to add, a small thing (kinda). I really don't understand it.

Stupid Econ class. I hate my Macroeconomics class so much, especially since the teacher sucks. In general, I hate politics and economics, and that's all I've been hearing lately. Yeah, it's a big factor, but for goodness sakes, I'm only 20. What can I do about it? I have no power, and I don't want to hear it. I don't care about secluding myself from the world. It's something that I actually enjoy. And I'm not trying to sound emo at all. Everyone just tries to get you down, so you have to seclude yourself and remember that you're a lot better than that, especially since I'm the one that keeps strong for my family and actually does good in school and am a good friend to most of my friends.


Anyways, that's off topic. Last night, or I should say this morning, I only got about an hour of sleep, and that was on accident. I took about four hour nap yesterday and woke up around 7-7:30 and began studying. I just stopped about 15 minutes ago. Yeah, I've been studying that long, and I'm planning to do that for the rest of the day and stay up the night again and then go to school. Let's also remember I only got four hours of sleep on Sunday, or really, just technically Monday. So basically my sleep is all out of wack.

I don't feel like I deserve anything right now. It sucks because I'm mainly an A-B student, which in the case right now, I have an A in all my classes (with the exception of one, but i'm at a B and I've turned in extra credit and am turning in more extra credit this week, so if that's not an A, than it'll be pretty dang close). But my Econ class is a D, and it seems no matter how hard I try, I'm just getting lower grades, especially after yesterday with th stupid worksheet.
It's strange though because a lot of the class seems to be confused about what's going on, so really, that's the teacher's fault, but now, and I could just be taking this in the wrong way, she makes it feel like I'm stupid because apparently I don't understand this stuff like almost everyone else. If the class average is a 60 on a test, and still up this point no one is understanding too much of the concept, then that's the teacher's fault. So I'm trying my best, but I just feel like an idiot right now.

For the next few days or up until the test next wed, I'm not going to be sleeping much at all, I'm canceling my time of going to Disneyland (sorry Ronni), and I might possibly not go to the Anthony Green show (sorry Katie). This is wiping me out because I feel so stupid and like I'm a bad student. Whatever.


And sorry I haven't been as consistent. Life hits you, ya know?