In Coming Awakening.

So I decided to create one of these. I don't like capitals all too much, but I feel that maybe I should use them for the purpose of this blogger site and not lead people astray of what I'm trying to get at. Plus, Livejournal wasn't tickling my fancy.

This past week has been an utmost interesting week, and I'm starting to realize the potential I may be able to seek within myself soon enough. Of course, I have somewhat of an ability to photograph certain events at different angles and am able to create music upon the piano, but something else sparked inside of me this past week.

You see, there's this place called The Refuge, and I guess you can think of it as a church, but really, it's not. It's a place for prayer and other necessities concerning the living within Christ and building a foundation of him within the heart. As I've grown up, this has always been my standard, and has definitely created a heart warming place for him to live inside me, but before, I wasn't always the best at showing it. In fact I was probably the worse at it. I could probably have been considered a heretic, a blasphemer. But you know, something awakened inside me last week. Some unexplainable feeling.

I've been having ideas to begin painting again. I mean, in the past, I've only painted one picture as I can remember, and it's ok I guess. I'm not too proud of it. It's just what my mindset was at the moment. But continuing, I've been having the urge to paint once again, and more ideas have been coming into my mind then I can explain. I have to say, now that I think about it, going to that place called The Refuge reassured my feelings about it, in a very positive way. I've always known about The Refuge before, and have gone before, and although I'm not the most comfortable with everything that they may do, I'll be there to support them 110% simply because of their intentions on prayer and other, shall we say, positive artistic factors. Walking into that place simply is just like walking into a complete and perfect art room. Everything you can imagine is there. Instruments such as drums, keyboard/synth, guitar, and bass, going more towards the painting portion, and just the overall soothing ambient waves that pour through your body. Just from walking into that place I felt a presence I've never felt before. It was one of the greatest things I've ever felt in my life though. God's presence is strongly there.

I've walked into churches before and felt absolutely nothing at all, but this place, this place is much different. It's a supernatural feeling that has no words comprehendable behind it. It's just the aura of God's spirit pouring through your body, no matter who you are, and it is the most artistic place I've ever seen in my life.

To be in that place created instant inspiration. I hadn't been in the place since it was finished, since one of the bosses I was working for at the time attends The Refuge, so that was one of his projects, to fix the place up. It is just definitely something I can't explain. And to think I was just there to take pictures of the paintings so they can reuse the canvases.

I've been reading more now. Sometimes I'm stupid enough to forget to read, but reading the bible isn't just reading it. It's taking in the word and trying to soak it in to learn about the teachings of God, so thinking of it in that way definitely makes it more interesting.

But finally what my Photo teacher said is starting to come to me more and more. I've been wanting to write about a book I want to create reflecting me in another character, and situations maybe I've always thought about I could have been in. I have wanted to create more paintings. I want to be more creative in the way I take pictures. I've been wanting to create beautiful piano pieces.

I think I'm starting to define who I really am. A starving and positive artist.