The Weakest.

I really hated today. All of today. I've been an emotional wreck all day. All I've been doing is going around and around, and I feel sick to my stomach.

This morning on the way to school, I don't know why, but I became so angry. A lot of my past came into my mind and I started to dwell on that. While driving too. It's not a good combination at all. I felt like ramming my car into something. And the mix of that and hearing of Katie's Grandparent's surgery. I don't know, I just deal with things differently.

Class got canceled, and I had bought some hot fries, a drink, and some mint tablets, since I had forgotten to brush my teeth this morning. So I decided I wanted to do something special for Katie then since I didn't have any class. I left a twelve pack of the lipton green tea she loves so much, a bunch of cookies (although I had originally wanted to make cupcakes), a small strawberry ice cream, and fudge bars. She liked that when she got home later after I had left.

When I got home, I decided to visit my photo teacher from high school. That's always good since she's always her quirky and happy self. But man, I hate that school so much. But my sister came over for a while to play some games, but I sense something in her that's a little more hidden. Like something's wrong.

All I've been doing all day is worrying and worrying, non-stop, and I hate it. And I can't help it, that's the problem. And I just don't feel like being around anyone or talking to anyone or nothing. I feel like a bad boyfriend. It's not that I did anything. Actually that's the problem. I feel like I'm doing nothing, and that's wrong. I just don't feel as close as I used to, or as happy as I used to. I don't know, maybe because she's been so down lately, it's gotten to me. I really don't know what to do. I feel so helpless and worthless right now.